Sometimes I wonder...

Sometimes i wonder, what would it be if u were here....
Will you and I sit under the moonlight, sharing the stories of each other life?
Will you be my comforter in times of need?
Will you be the one who embrace my need?
Will you still reach out to me even as i aged? or perhaps a hug of silent which let me know i still had you and i am not alone?
Will we be sharing the same joy? even if it is the simplest one
Most important of all will i still be me?
never know......it is like a illusion

Nevertheless, you had offer me a gift from the very first moment i land on this place, "mother earth".
My first gift and will also be my last one
It can be the greatest or the worse gift......it depends on me....
If you could hear my soul within my flesh; i would tell u that, this is the most wonderful gift that ever happen......."Life".
Full of unpredictable, advantures....
Give me a sudden urge of joy, bittersweet moment ...

Did you know......you left too early, you left without a goodbye.
I have the picture of you lying in the box, but the image of you in my mind was so unclear and distance...
But my gratitute towards u remain.
Because...
You are my first stepping stone of all my memories, experiences, life pathway....
I don't know if there is a place called heaven...
I don't know if you are an energy vibrating in the same frequency ....
I don't know if you could feel me still.....
But if u were here i will hug u tightly.....because i can't remember the feeling you cradle me in your arms nor could i remember u did so.....

I wonder, where will the people away like you will be?
There are assumptions from all field; field of philosophy , science, religion......but then again.....there are so much to explore, to know even the most convincing reason had offer to us.
Collaboration is much needed from all separate entity......

~sher